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..:: ohmylord ::.. [Dec. 8th, 2010|08:41 pm]
fashionably_me
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..:: adios ::.. [Nov. 12th, 2009|01:28 pm]
fashionably_me
i'm moving.
if you (whoever you maybe) want to continue reading my oh-so-interesting stories, just leave me a note and i'll direct you to my new blog.
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hmm...
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doubt there'd be anyone though.
haha..
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bubbye!!
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..:: what i need ::.. [Oct. 26th, 2009|02:05 am]
fashionably_me
been awhile since i last updated.
yet again.
need to start again.
this is the only place that keeps me sane.
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so ya.
ASSuME.
dats what i do.
always end up screwing myself over though.
guess that the way things are meant to be aye?
tragic ending afterall.
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you know, things would have been easier if things didn't start off the way it did.
it would have been easier not to think about this shit so much it happened more naturally.
the pushing didn't help either.
seriously.
i don't know why i keep doing this to myself.
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am i that desperate to find someone to fill this emptiness?
gosh.
i'm sounding more and more emo by the day.
sometimes it gets to me a little to much.
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i'm trying my best to get back on my feet.
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as if breaking off an engagement wasn't bad enough....
i lost someone dear to me as well...
and then i lost someone dearer...
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have i really sinned so much that YOU are punishing me this way?
i know that i'm not an angel...but i try my best to get back on the right track..
i believe in YOU and always pray (though not the way i'm supposed to) that YOU would help me and guide me..
i guess my perseverance isn't strong enough.
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i need to stop all this nonsense.
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the pain and the effect soothes me.
it's like my new best friend.
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i know that it's just cos i don't have anyone else.
i know that it's just cos u're new.
i know that it's just cos it's what i want.
i know that it's just cos i wish that it'll happen.
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why do i keep killing myself?
why do i keep putting myself through the same bullshit all the time?
why have i become so weak?
why can't i just be the carefree person i was all those years back?
why does this suddenly affect me so much now?
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it's time to repent.
i need to get back on the right track and make amends with HIM.
the only one person who can help me is HIM.
i just wish satan wouldn't sit in my backyard all the time..taunting me.
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where is it?

 


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..:: what's life without love ::.. [Oct. 21st, 2009|12:59 pm]
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[Feeling... |hopefulhopeful]
[Listening to... |Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys]




"What's the point of having it all without the person you love. Sometimes you just need to start again, in order to fly..."
A. Keys



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..:: doesn't mean anything ::.. [Oct. 12th, 2009|10:29 pm]
fashionably_me
[Feeling... |crappycrappy]

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..:: it's been a long time coming ::.. [Oct. 12th, 2009|08:15 pm]
fashionably_me
[Sitting... |Singapore, Singapore]
[Feeling... |confusedconfused]
[Listening to... |Meet Me Halfway - B.E.P]


it's been awhile since i actually posted a decent entry.
so here it is.

my family is set on match making me.
heh.
this will be interesting.
somehow, deep down inside, i'm afraid.
i still have that picture perfect family potrait i painted almost 5 years ago...
6 of us.
haha.
yes, i want 4 kids.
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me and him.
2 girls.
2 boys.
girls with my hair.
boys with his eyelashes.
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oh, and the moles.
haha.
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i still can't change that picture.
i can't imagine myself with someone else.
i can't imagine starting a family with someone other than him.
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though i know i have been permanently erased from his heart and mind...
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did you even read anything BEFORE the august entries??
did you even realize that you're not the only one in this??
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i never understood why you were always so paranoid about him being my friend.
seriously.
isn't it just like you and sarah?
u go out with her...you tell her about our problems..
i never suspected you of being more than just friends.
so why did you suspect that of me?
at least i never lied to you.
unlike the numerous times you lied and made stories up.
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i'm ranting.
bleargh.
get over it already sharmila!!
he obviously already is!
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haiz.
so much angst.
need to let it go.
no point crying over spilt milk.
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i went shopping last week.
my gorsh.
too much money spent in a day.
haha.
i love the tops i bought though!
'twas supposed to get shoes this month...
looks like that's on next month's shopping list!
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i got 4 tops from DP.
a long knitted sweater from Esprit (it's so so comfy that i feel like nodding off everytime :p)
a note pad and a new pouch for my ez-link (Ed took mine!)
i think that's about it...
hmmm...
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next month, shoes and bags and purses.
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oh yeah!
i bought new studs.
for my ears.
i don't think i'll be piercing my face anymore.
i mean, i can't possibly do that with guys and their families coming over to take a look at me right??
hahah.
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oh well....


my beloved grandad was a great man.
so great that God decided it was time he took him back.
we're glad that he didnt have to suffer long.
he was taken back peacefully... with all his loved ones standing by him, praying for him.
it still hasnt sunk in yet for me.
eventhough it's been a little over a week.
i guess it's cos my brain and heart have been so well trained by me to push away everything that causes me hurt....
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..:: life. ::.. [Oct. 7th, 2009|08:02 pm]
fashionably_me


Setiap tetes air mataku
Telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
Mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Setiap kata dari bibirku
Kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
Tersenyum dalam hati menangis

Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Aku juga cintaimu..
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau tak mau tahu


Aku sangat mengenalmu
Dulu kau tak begitu
Kau bintang di hatiku
Jadilah yang kumau
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau ada denganku

Ku mengerti kau apa adanya
Begitupun yang kumau darimu
Kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
Cintaku telah diujung jalan
 

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..:: be at peace ::.. [Oct. 5th, 2009|11:06 am]
fashionably_me
 


You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

 

- David Harkins quotes

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..:: cuts and slashes ::.. [Sep. 15th, 2009|11:30 am]
fashionably_me
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[Feeling... |numbnumb]

you tell me this, and you tell her that.
you make me so confused, lost in your words.
you give me hope.
you give me strength.
just with a blink of an eye,
you snatch it from my soul.

you lift me up, then drop me beneath the ground.
i crash and get burned.
yet i come back for more.
i'm too addicted.
though addiction is a sin.
the sinner that i am, will forever be lured.

pain has scarred me.
till all emotions have been emptied.
a reminder to myself of what real pain feels.
i'll do this to myself over and over.

you are my drug.
make me high while you are in my blood.
you leave me dry while you feed your other victims.
till it's my turn again, the abuse rekindles.

as much as i repel
i can't stop my mind.
from the moment i awake
it's all i ever want.

my soul is empty till you fill it up
you scald every inch of me the moment you arrive.
and when we part, i feel the cold enter.
your plan materialises,
i raise the flag.

i raise the flag.

i raise the flag.
 

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..:: i wanted to... ::.. [Sep. 8th, 2009|03:01 pm]
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[Feeling... |crazycrazy]

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